I always assumed everything would just click one day. In a unique way it does, but for a while I was waiting for a special moment, a feeling of readiness to just be me, as if an awareness/self-love fairy would sprinkle womanhood dust on me in my sleep and I’d wake up feeling perfectly complete.
I’ve learned there is no special moment unless you make one…every second, of every day, be authentic for you. Wake up, choose to be grounded in spirit, show up and trust in God to have your back (universe, source, yourself, whatever you believe, just TRUST). On some days I may have to remind myself multiple times within the same hour that everything is okay and that my existence alone is simply enough. When I do fully surrender to that trust, beautiful synchronicities seem to fall into place as if they were meant to be exactly as they are. For years I’ve wrestled with anxiety, imposter syndrome and an insanely active inner dialogue that can be absolutely brutal. That is okay because I am working on it, running through the dark forests of my mind with a bright torch yelling GTFO! (Making room for love to grow in it’s place.)
The word “wellness” covers a wide pool of trendy topics, often used for profit, targeting all demographics with cleverly creative marketing angles. Nothing beats good ole capitalism right? Tis the society we raised, and like most parents, ‘we think we did our best’, but sometimes ‘best’ just isn’t good enough, especially in messy tangled situations. It’s fine, because there is a greater plan and we will transcend in due time as the collective soul awakens.
WELLNESS (far beyond overused tag lines in mainstream media) is a REAL pursuit towards an optimal life. True wellness is the foundation of self-perseverance inside and out (and it is your responsibility to water the garden of mind, body and spirit). It is an intimate relationship with the self that holds sacred validity on all vibrations. You are the only one who can have that much POWER over you. I strongly encourage myself and my fellow humans to use that power for goodness in hope that the raw truth we cultivate within ourselves will reflect out and nourish us, galvanizing and balancing the knotted webs of tethered energy choking this world. If we set ourselves free, we set each other free…like a massive lung taking a big huge breath of fresh air. Exhale. Woosah.
Lokah samastah sukhino bhavantu. (“May all beings be happy and free, and may the thoughts, words and actions of my own life contribute in some way to that happiness and freedom for all.”)
This little place of mine here online has periods of being neglected in which I completely pretend it doesn’t exist at all. That is totally okay.
When I plug back in and read comments that spark my soul, it gives me fuel to write again and to share whatever I’m feeling freely. (I’d rather express true words every now and then instead of spitting consistent bull to meet some expectation.)
This blog started out as a sort of diary towards a better me. Then pressure built up from people around me as to what I “should” be doing. I realize as I’ve gotten older, that the process of filtering my own thoughts from others’ opinions has become less of an innately automatic occurrence, and more of an anxiety trigger. Anxiety is a crippling liar wearing a mask called fear. I struggle with this and it manifests in procrastination and indecision. Love the journey, right?
What is the exploration of self?
How do you begin to traverse such a multi-dimensional space?
I have so many questions and although I may not have answers to most of them, there is one thing I’ve realized and accepted in 26 years of living —I need roots, the kind of roots that my brain can build a healthy life upon. They say networking is important—making connections or whatever.
“It’s not what ya know, it’s who ya know.” Right?
But who are you? Do you really know you?
We are what we think and what we do, a production of thoughts and actions. So, with that truth, we must recognize that the relationship we have with ourselves is a powerful connection that truly matters. Without establishing that bond, there’s no true beginning. How do you know where you are if you don’t remember or care about where you started?
(This article is published in the Healthy Living Section of Tallahassee Woman Magazine’s August/September 2017 issue. I love writing and sharing ways to live healthfully. I had a great time brainstorming and researching for this project. The best part was watching Sleepless in Seattle to prepare for the theme! The topic covers the importance of sleep for a healthy life and tips to get the restful nights you deserve.)
“Sleepless in Tallahassee”
Second to love, sleep is the closest thing we have to magic.
Today, we face a sleep deprivation epidemic in which incidences of dozing off at work or behind the wheel happen all too often. Our modern world dances to the beat of it’s own drum, an unhealthy fast-paced society whose sleeping hours are dictated by the flip of a light switch instead of the absence of sunlight. While we can’t stop evolution, we can take hold of our lives as individuals. Developing healthy sleep patterns cultivates synchronicity, attuning us to the circadian clock, a biological mechanism that guides the lives of not only humans, but also plants and animals.
Inspiration under the microscope:
1. Cranberry Juice
This recipe is simple, super scrumptious and allergy friendly/adaptable. It’s gluten-free, dairy-free and soy-free. You can make this recipe vegan by using an egg replacement (more power to ya)!
Enjoy…share…and let me know if you have any feedback!
I try not to overdo it, but sweets are my weakness and I love baking! I fell in love with baking when I was in my first couple of gluten-free years around 2014, also not too long after starting this blog. I would find bliss in every step, especially the photos and the anticipation of tasty results. Nowadays I don’t have as much leisure and I’m lucky if I can get one recipe post done a month, but I try because it’s a hobby and sharing that brings me joy. Follow your bliss right? 🙂
It’s officially spring time! March 20th marks the Vernal or Spring Equinox (equal nights). The sun is crossing directly over the Earth’s equator, making day and night of equal duration.
So many things are blossoming and coming anew, both in nature and in our attempts to nurture ourselves and others. Animals are coming out of hibernation and farmers will be planting fresh crops. We are getting ready for spring cleaning and making hopeful commitments towards healthful habits like rising early,finding routines, and planting seeds of positivity through new goals and affirmations. This is a great time to be open minded, yet equally grounded in dedication to our goals.
Within every ending is a seed of new beginning.
For centuries humans have regarded this as a special time to celebrate the triumph of light! (Sun worship is a foundational part of the history behind the rituals practiced in many cultures today). Easter falls on the first Sunday following the first full moon after the equinox. (Fun fact: The origins of Easter date far before Christianity and the rabbit and the egg are symbols of sex and fertility).
Some days I wonder where the time went, other days I feel like I have so much ahead of me. Read More
I myself, am gluten intolerant, which means that I present with some of the signs and symptoms, but do not test positive for the specific markers of the disease. Finding this information out and taking it seriously changed my life. I was sick for years, overweight, tired and swollen. I spent so much time seeing specialists that all told me I was fine. I wasn’t fine and even now if I get exposed to gluten I have pretty severe swelling in my feet (especially on my right side), along with abdominal distention and fatigue. I’m not complaining, just sharing my story! My health issues have been such a blessing in disguise because of how much I have learned and the empowerment I feel by taking charge of my health and my life. I love Science and research and I had a lot of fun making this infographic because I find joy in creating content that can help other people along their health journey.